COVID19 - Day 5
3/19/20 Day 5
I saw a suggestion on social media to try journaling to deal with anxiety and another article that recommended chronicling the events during these crazy times. So that's just what I am going to do.
I don't own a notebook journal and I have terrible handwriting, so I am going to fire up the old blog and relieve some stress.
I think we're on day 5 of schools being shut down, which means my kids and husband have been home. Schools closed last Friday and today is Thursday 3/19/20.
8am
I woke up to get ready to work, unsure of whether I would be going into the office or not. Based on every recommendation I have heard, I should not be going in, but I feel like I am more effective at being able to jump in and help with something if I am in the office. Plus my boss has been in every day this week. The office has been emptier and emptier every day. I felt like I was able to appropriately "distance" myself (6 ft).
One look in the mirror and I was like, wtf. My left eye is so red and blood shot. Weird, it didn't seem crusty or itchy when I woke up. Since it's only one eye, I don't think its allergies. Praying it's not pink eye, but it's probably pink eye. The more I look at it, and try to ignore it, the more it starts itching.
I send a secure message to my dr to see if there's a rx they will give me or some drops they recommend.
Matthew woke up at 7:15 and tried to wake William up, but William wanted to keep sleeping. I gave him an iPad and told him to go back to his room. At 8 he came in the office to tell me he was hungry and I made him breakfast (frozen waffle and frozen pancake) and he turned on the tv.
10 am
I have a headache and go downstairs to get some Tylenol. the boys are watching dance videos so I take a dance break and do the chicken dance.
8-12
Four hours of work and conference calls, a digital town hall for work.
Time for lunch - luckily I still meal prepped for this week, so it's heat and eat
1-5
More work, messaging with colleagues and friends, haven't heard from the Dr office about my eye.It seems a bit better, but still red.
5-10
Go downstairs, make dinner. The boys are getting testy and on each other's nerves.
The weather is amazing so we take a walk to the lake after dinner. It's still hard to believe all of this is going on. We're just living our normal life at home.
I am worried this is going to get old fast and people will go back to their normal social lives and this will all be for nothing.
Things that are giving me anxiety:
The fact that many of my relatives are in the high risk population, including my parents
That one of my family members will get sick and we won't be able to be with them in the hospital
That Daisy will get sick and we won't be able to go to the vet, get medicine, or put her down if it comes to that (grim, I know)
The facts are confusing, information is contradictory
I feel like I have valuable skills at work, but I should just stay home. Also the best way to help my company right now is to take an unpaid leave, but so many questions about the future...
We use a lot of toilet paper around here... and everyone wiped out the stock at stores, everyone is waiting for more
Things I am thankful for:
My health
my family
my job (wouldn't lie if I said I wasn't a little worried for my company right now)
my friends -especially work friends that I can vent to and know they are going through the same thing
A very full pantry and 2 freezers. I do think we could make it a few weeks without grocery shopping.
I saw a suggestion on social media to try journaling to deal with anxiety and another article that recommended chronicling the events during these crazy times. So that's just what I am going to do.
I don't own a notebook journal and I have terrible handwriting, so I am going to fire up the old blog and relieve some stress.
I think we're on day 5 of schools being shut down, which means my kids and husband have been home. Schools closed last Friday and today is Thursday 3/19/20.
8am
I woke up to get ready to work, unsure of whether I would be going into the office or not. Based on every recommendation I have heard, I should not be going in, but I feel like I am more effective at being able to jump in and help with something if I am in the office. Plus my boss has been in every day this week. The office has been emptier and emptier every day. I felt like I was able to appropriately "distance" myself (6 ft).
One look in the mirror and I was like, wtf. My left eye is so red and blood shot. Weird, it didn't seem crusty or itchy when I woke up. Since it's only one eye, I don't think its allergies. Praying it's not pink eye, but it's probably pink eye. The more I look at it, and try to ignore it, the more it starts itching.
I send a secure message to my dr to see if there's a rx they will give me or some drops they recommend.
Matthew woke up at 7:15 and tried to wake William up, but William wanted to keep sleeping. I gave him an iPad and told him to go back to his room. At 8 he came in the office to tell me he was hungry and I made him breakfast (frozen waffle and frozen pancake) and he turned on the tv.
10 am
I have a headache and go downstairs to get some Tylenol. the boys are watching dance videos so I take a dance break and do the chicken dance.
8-12
Four hours of work and conference calls, a digital town hall for work.
Time for lunch - luckily I still meal prepped for this week, so it's heat and eat
1-5
More work, messaging with colleagues and friends, haven't heard from the Dr office about my eye.It seems a bit better, but still red.
5-10
Go downstairs, make dinner. The boys are getting testy and on each other's nerves.
The weather is amazing so we take a walk to the lake after dinner. It's still hard to believe all of this is going on. We're just living our normal life at home.
I am worried this is going to get old fast and people will go back to their normal social lives and this will all be for nothing.
Things that are giving me anxiety:
The fact that many of my relatives are in the high risk population, including my parents
That one of my family members will get sick and we won't be able to be with them in the hospital
That Daisy will get sick and we won't be able to go to the vet, get medicine, or put her down if it comes to that (grim, I know)
The facts are confusing, information is contradictory
I feel like I have valuable skills at work, but I should just stay home. Also the best way to help my company right now is to take an unpaid leave, but so many questions about the future...
We use a lot of toilet paper around here... and everyone wiped out the stock at stores, everyone is waiting for more
Things I am thankful for:
My health
my family
my job (wouldn't lie if I said I wasn't a little worried for my company right now)
my friends -especially work friends that I can vent to and know they are going through the same thing
A very full pantry and 2 freezers. I do think we could make it a few weeks without grocery shopping.
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